Saturday, March 31, 2012

Day #451 Whoa! I didn't recognize you!

I've been waiting for the day when I would hear that statement! This past week we met up with friends that had moved out of the country two years ago and last saw me at 250 lbs. When they walked into the restaurant they walked right past me and then turned back around when they saw Andrew. They didn't recognize me! What an awesome feeling.

I also finished going through my closet and I have a mountain (literally) of clothes that don't fit me anymore:

I'm going to let my friends go through them and pick out what they want first and then donate the rest to the battered women's shelter.

Even though I can fit into high school clothes and feel amazing, I still hear comments that make me feel like i've made no progress at all. I went to the GYN to see about changing my birth control because i'm not getting any acne control with my iud, and the nurse practitioner said "well, you are a big girl". How can I have lost 71 lbs and still be a big girl? It just made me sad.  Whenever people ask me how much more I want to lose and what's my goal weight, I just say, i'll stop whenever i'm not a "big girl" anymore. I've heard that statement all of my life and it just makes me so angry!

In other news, we're supposed to close on our new house in about 9 days, so i'm stressed out to the max. I'm trying to deal with the stress/anxiety as best as I can but i'm not doing a very good job.  Some days I hardly eat anything at all because i'm so stressed out.  I can't wait for the next two weeks to be over!

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Day #444 Staircase

My surgeon described this journey to me as a staircase. As in I would lose weight quickly and then be steady for a while, then drop quickly again etc. I dropped really quickly the first two weeks after surgery, about a pound a day! Then for the last 6 weeks it's been 1-2 lbs a week. I'm lucky that I never truly "stalled" and especially that I didn't gain any weight. I finally had a quick drop! I'm going through the 180's in a blur. On 3/12 I weighed 190 and today 3/24 I weigh 181!

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Day #437 I Can Work Out, Closet Shenanigans & Regular Stores!

I started working out on Friday with one of my best friends that's a personal trainer. I was scared that I wouldn't be able to work out, and that I would feel weak/pass out and feel really embarassed but none of those things happened! We did interval training, a lot of stretching, and some resistance bands and kettle bells. I've always been a fast walker (which helps me a LOT as a nurse!) and even took a speed walking class in college!

We started out with a fast paced walk for about 7 minutes. After warming up my muscles we stretched a bit, marching in place to keep my hr up between stretches. Then we started fast walking again, with intervals of fast walking, regular slow jog, fast walk, regular slow jog with high knees, fast walk, regular slow jog with kick backs, fast walk, repeat. We did 1.5 miles at 15 minutes per mile. On Friday we did squats and jumping jacks and push ups. Today we did upper body work with the resistance bands and a 7 lb kettle bell. I'm sore but it feels good to be sore :-p!

I started cleaning out my closet and am starting to try on every single thing and throw away everything that's too big. So far I have a big black trash bag full of clothes to take to goodwill. It felt so amazing to try on all of my old clothes from before I got out of control obese and have them fit me just like they used to or even better! I tried on my wedding dress and it just falls off. I was about 210-215 at my wedding in 2008 and I weighed 187 this morning. I even fit into my bridesmaid dress from a wedding in 2006:

I can't believe I forgot to blog about my first time buying new jeans!!! My size 18's that used to fit me so tight that I had a giant muffin top and had indentions in my skin after taking them off at night were falling off even with my belt on really tight. So I decided to buy a cheap pair of jeans at old navy that could help me get through this transition. I walked up to the wall of jeans and grabbed four different styles in a size 16 and went to the dressing room. I dragged my husband in with me and tried on the first pair. They were giant. Repeat x the other three pair. I went out and got the same styles in a size 14. Three of the four were big everywhere but the abdomen and the fourth pair fit really well everywhere but slightly snug on my belly fat where i'm biggest so I bought that pair. I need size 12 legs with size 14 waistband, haha! Those jeans fit me comfortably now even on my belly, even fresh out of the dryer!!!

Trying on clothes at a regular store and having them fit is a dream come true. I tried on an XL dress at NY&Co. and it fit really well. I've only tried on clothes at those two "safe" stores where I have bought clothes before. I can't wait until I can really go into any single store I want to and buy something that fits and looks good.

There are no words to describe how happy I am right now!

Monday, March 12, 2012

Day #432 Stats!

These are my updated stats of 3/3:

  • From my heighest weight ever (250 lbs) at graduation from nursing school in May 2010 I have lost 61 lbs!
  • My Measurements in inches:
Before1 monthDifference
Right thigh25.523.52
Left thigh27.524.53
Right bicep15132
Left bicep16142
Right wrist76.50.5
Left wrist76.50.5

I had started this post on 3/3 while waiting to go out with friends and am just getting around to posting it! I'm a bad bad blogger!